This blog has always been for me. I have always said that I am using the blog to keep myself accountable for the maintenance of my weight loss. I am proud to say that since May 8, the scale has bounced from 141 to 144. This morning I happened to weigh 143.0. I would say that I'm doing okay. I would have recorded my food and workouts on this blog and kept it private, however I was being asked for advice a lot, so I decided to publicize my posts and add a few advice posts centered around issues that came up during my weight loss experience. I feel like it's time for a change.
I cannot record my meals and workouts every single day for the rest of my life. And that was never the intention.
I need to try maintenance without the accountability of the blog. I will be on vacation for 10 days this month. My weight is being maintained. It seems like a good time to stop posting.
I am involved with a Blog Challenge this month. I have committed to it. I was toying with the idea of abandoning that project as well. I still struggle with the narcissism that a blog seems to bring. It makes me a bit uncomfortable. Especially because I'm a pretty opinionated person on certain issues and I feel like my writing is a bit too spicy. I'm afraid my good friends will secretly judge me behind their computer screen. Is that a normal concern? I don't know. I also really don't want to delve into my deepest personal issues. This is a public blog and it feels so strange to discuss those issues even when I tell myself that my closest friends are the only ones reading.
My friend, Randi, sent us a Facebook message today about how much she is enjoying our community blogging efforts. I just love Randi. How can I quit NOW?!
So, I just spent the last hour writing posts for the Blog Challenge that catches me up to Day 21. I enjoyed it. I just don't know if I have an audience for what I'm writing. I think I could continue blogging if I felt like I had people who cared. I do enjoy reading others' blogs myself, so I'm trying to imagine that others enjoy reading my writing too. I'm pretty undecided.
I do like the idea of sharing and discussing what is going on in my life.I am sure I still have more to say about nutrition and working out. I'm fairly sure there will be a "Phase 2" to my weight loss. Pencil that in for August. Should I blog that? I like the idea of the blog becoming a personal diary...something to look back on. Should I blog because of that? Maybe I will continue blogging past these Blog Challenge days. We shall see.
To those of you who read, thanks for caring. xo